I have not posted on here on other platforms for some time, why? Well, you crazy kids, let me tell you.

I have suffered my entire adult life with depression and anxiety at some level or other. Worse some times than others but always a general background level. I have said many times to doctors that I believed there was something else going on causing this and was told that there was not.

Well there was, I was diagnosed late last year with ADHD after me having to fight to get through the system. I am currently trialling medication and seeing how it goes.

How it goes is that I am finding the whole thing very hard. Not least because is has shown a lot of my worst or oddest decisions into the light again because I can start to have an explanation for why I did it.

That’s not fun let me tell you. I have been going through my life and seeing what I did and now breaking down why. I’m not a young chap so that’s a lot to walk through.

So I am at a loss at what to do, I have little motivation and if I am honest I do not really know anymore what I like doing. It’s all one big grey mass of stagnation and inertia for me at the moment I am afraid. My personal life is not too great either so that doesn’t help really.

I am trying to chip away at things as I go and one of the first things that I wanted to do was close The Traffic Island project. For the reasons above and because I do not want to support a platform that promotes actual fascists. I’m odd like that.

There is a post about that on The Traffic Island but it might not be there for long so I won’t link it here.

I will pop the original posts on here soon and close it down, I did not really want to do it. I was not enjoying it, I was doing it as I thought that I might be able to make some money and leave my day job.

Writing something that I don’t care about is not for me it seems. Maybe I am not such a hack after all.